Life Decisions

Well, I'm 28 and I want two things. A baby and a new house. If I have the baby I will have to go part-time at my job thereby lessening our household income significantly. Obviously a new house would be unaffordable were such a thing to happen. If I get the new house I will have to work full-time for at least another four to five years to pay off other bills before I could even imagine going part-time. So where does this quandry leave me? I know that in my own mind and heart I would desprately want to work only part-time if I had a baby. It would seem neglectful to work full-time therefore making my baby part-time in my life. However my current house is only two itty bitty bedrooms and one bath. We share a driveway with my neighbor whose house is so close I could almost spit on it from by back porch. We also live on a really busy highway. Now for the soul searching. I have always considered myself to be the sort of person who puts a very high value on family and love while despising the ugliness of materialism. So where does this leave me? In this situation the word "practicality" keeps smacking me in head like a hammer. Ax and I are already a little cramped in our small space. Could we make adjustments for a little one and not go insane with quanderies like where to stack the newest baby toy? Hmmm....a part of me wants to say that yes, we could make arrangements. Another part of me highly dislikes the reality of not only having to make that room but also acknowledge the fact that the living arrangements would remain as they were for a few years, during the youngest years of our childs life due to my desire to work only part-time while the baby was little. It's all about sacrifices. Sacrificing space and proximity to my neighbor for a cute little baby to love and share with Ax. Writing is so very therapeutic. I believe that I've answered my question here. Babies are better than houses.